(Intro) The time is... 4:35 in the morning This what my soul sound like (Chorus) Trying not to breakdown before the break of dawn This monotone monologue is just to keep me going Trying not to break, trying not to break Trying not to breakdown before the break of dawn (Verse) You know that feeling when you Heaven sent, but yo name irrelevant? Got you feeling fishy like some Halibut And it'd be different if I just did it for the hell of it But music my heart and soul, put my all in it Often I'm feeling awful I know that I'm off the charts when it comes to potential But sometimes I feel like my talent don't work as hard as I do Still, I stay optimistic Drives me insane the thought they might not know my name Not here for fame, but I would still like some acknowledgement Because I'm tired of being a starving artist! A star must die for it to shine the brightest A black hole of songs I put my heart in A supernova being overlooked, I feel discarded Feel like dearly departed, can't finish what I started Make me go even harder I'm losing sleep to chase my dreams, so you gonn feel a part of me in every word I utter Making sure I don't stutter When I say I'm the greatest, mean it with every ounce of strength that's remaining The picture I'm painting is passion, plus pain, while using my pen I'm writing my sins I put on paper what I'm feeling within Feels like I'll never make it! Of course I know that there's embedded greatness But when no one sees it, it gets aggravating I'm so frustrated, if we keeping candid I told my momma we'll be living in mansions, I put my word on it So every syllable got my soul on it So loss of streams feels like I lost a part of me, don't it? Got people rooting for me Gotta make 'em proud Can't let 'em down So, I drown out the sounds Amidst the silence, you can hear my voice the loudest Your worth is more than what you can accomplish (Chorus) Trying not to breakdown before the break of dawn This monotone monologue is just to keep me going It's so insane what I be saying in these morning hours And so I'm grateful for the small reminders (Outro) Trying not to breakdown before the break of dawn This monotone monologue is just to keep me going Trying not to break, trying not to break

(Intro) *chuckles* Alright I mean... when you see the buds, it's anticipation that you gonn have fruit So it's encouraging to see buds, cause then you You know fruits gonn come It's the first stage, or step, in the process to the end result (Chorus) This, not even my final form! I'm still buddin' (Buddin') Not stopping till I become something Pollinated, but my head just be buzzin' I'm still growing but I like who I'm becoming This not even my final form! I'm still buddin' (Buddin') Not stopping till I become something Pollinated, but my head just be buzzin' I'm still growing but I like who I'm becoming (Verse 1: Emcee Millz) The fruits of my labor are coming into fruition But if I'm growing, why I feel I'm in the same position? Frozen by fear, I'm feeling locked in Surrounded by the pressure to turn buds up into blossoms and flowers Never had the optics of optimists My option is to switch the lens and start to cleanse Wounded parts of me that been buried deep Sowed a seed of doubt, so I start to see My inherent need for publicity as validation I know that I'm a legend, doesn't matter what they sayin Still there's been a voice I can't escape from It's been lying dormant and benign in my mind Till it finally take root inside a part of my heart So every piece of progress been weeded out from the start (from the start) My observation, it get vacant and frustrating When the music that you making don't exceed the expectations that you had for yourself Make your thoughts go astray Imagine thinking you the one, but you the one in your way So I dig, beneath the surface and notice That I'm hurting, unearthing All of this trauma with no way to reverse it It ain't working, that's for certain So I cover it up with a smile Add fertilizers, and fiber, and other methods I'm trying Add different waters I water it, till I find a part of me that I can finally be proud of But this not even my final form This not even my final form (Chorus) This not even my final form! I'm still buddin' (Buddin') Not stopping till I become something Pollinated, but my head just be buzzin' I'm still growing but I like who I'm becoming (Verse 2: Tino Ali) Feeling pressure to settle and be a married man But I still wanna travel to family by Maryland I seem distraught cause I saw my pops in the mirror and I feel like an imposter when I'm proper and not revealing hands Gotta be honest, can't play with the greatest emcee from the northern portion of Florida Referenced as Gatorland The man who worked three jobs just to try and pay the rent And later went on to release an album in a pandemic And actually profit My back is to gossip Ears that I had to the streets Only receive the sounds I have in my pocket Demos I recorded, you'll eventually rock with I'm buddin', it's sudden But if it improves my function, then my form will follow and we'll see just what it Is I am And not only the thoughts that you had of me I'm still mad our majesty I mean magistrates, actually I mean federal faculty My identity's absentee My passion brings me purpose, but I know it is not half of me So after these bars, what makes up all my personality? Battling with the government, all my friends, and my last few tweets Having to grow and portray myself in a way that is actually Ti- no

(Verse 1) Ain't April showers supposed to bring with it flowers? I've been feeling like I'm drowning I've been feeling like I'm drowning, oh Can no longer stay afloat I'm no longer buoyant, it get potent When this tempest get to going, throw me overboard Back when I was younger, used to jump in these puddles Now I'm feeling submerged up under reoccurring struggles That's the flow Anchored to a sea of emotions that I ain't mastered Though I'm masterful at deflecting feelings I'm feeling closer to the person that I know from years ago I can't let him go In general, I'm tethered to a contract that was never broken (Feeling hopeless) Quick, stay focused! Write a song, be real, be open (Feeling worthless) Braggadocious, over boasting Convoluting any of the slightest notions that I'm not 100 percent I'm feeling trapped in my skin I feel confined inside the same lines that I'm rhyming within For real, I'm losing my grip The rope thrown out to save me, safely fastening round my neck Told me hang on, but I'm hanging by a thread Not a threat, just don't wanna have to go through this again Yeah I said, I'm hanging on by a thread That's not a threat, I just don't wanna have to do this again Again? Dang (Chorus) I feel the rain on my skin I'm suffocating as the waves come overtake me again They overtake me again Overtake me again They overtake me again, again, again, again These April showers bringing me flowers But I'm feeling like I'm drowning Feels like I'm drowning Oh no Oh no Oh no, no, no, no (Verse 2) These April showers been wilding I need a moment of silence (Silence, silence, silence, silence) I need a moment of silence Cause when these thoughts get intrusive, I just don't know what to do Only 5'2 tryna swim, in the deep end of this pool But waves are crashing, people laughing, so I stay there choking Hoping they notice. Empty, molded this shell of a person I'm so confused, I turn to music when I feel I'm hurting Was therapeutic, now it's useless, I don't feel it working (Bridge) And so I'm crying out into a dark and black abyss The water's taller now, the showers flooding in again I'm a lot calmer now, I just accept it as the end But I'm still calling out Will you reach me in time friend? (Outro) Crying for hours (Hours, hours) These April (April, April) Showers (Showers, showers) April Showers

(Chorus) Code switching feel like camouflage Whole life feels like it's a mirage An illusion Am I lucid enough to know that this shell can not cover all my flaws? (Verse 1) With this cocoon I've concocted, containing my fragile body I show I'm stronger than what I appear My biggest fear is that my fraudulence will peek through this peephole And pierce me, as peers see I'm not who I ought to... be Cause in this state, I'm bout as frail as a feather That's often weathered by the winds that beat against her Been tormented by the showers, so I cower To a space where I feel safe, and empowered Another layer that surrounds her The deception of this position I'm in This cocoon is paper thin, it's bout as thick as my skin So I blindly retreat kindly to a place they'll never find me Isolated again, till I feel as strong as I'd like to pretend I pretend to see the benefits and overlook the detriment Hiding my disposition in the corners of a smile Relying on these walls to fortify me Till I can finally face the world outside me without lying, wow (Chorus) Code switching feel like camouflage Whole life feels like it's a mirage An illusion Am I lucid enough to know that this shell can not cover all my flaws? Oh, oh, oh My flaws, my flaws (Verse 2) This cocoon is supposed to be a catalyst for metamorphosis Instead, I've found that it's my stagnant part of growth My cubby of conformity I constantly succumb to parts of me that never want to go When confrontation comes to face me, I run from its abrasive embrace And I find solace in this quiet place I run away, I feel ashamed, I can't leave out the way I came And so I stay, but then I stay till there's no space for me to change It's always Precedented by the pressures of appearances to say that I'm okay The purpose of this room is to make me bloom into a butterfly But how can I justify leaving out of here the same? Instead, I use my name Deflect the deeper parts of me, and all throughout my artistry claim I'm a dope emcee who's doing things Undoubtedly they trust in me, but it's all been a game I must come clean, this life is hard for me to maintain (Chorus) Code switching feel like camouflage Whole life feels like it's a mirage An illusion Am I lucid enough to know that this shell can not cover all my flaws?

(Intro) You gonn hate me after this one That's cool... (Verse 1: Inner Conscience) No this ain't what you expected You wanted a helping hand to come and grab you out of the hole you dug yourself in Borderline selfish! Walking round helpless Yeah, I'm really coming for your neck sis You need a new perspective Not a new Lexus Not a new friend, new man, new event It's glaringly apparent to me that apparently You planted seeds of all your insecurities And then you watered it Look at where we started at How could you forget and overlook all your accomplishments? When you start believing that you wasn't gonna make it? Lying to yourself, you know you got embedded greatness Searching for validation in places you'll never find it These affirmations I'm stating serve as reminders That same peace that you picking yourself apart to find It resides in a part of your mind So take your time Look inside, yeah Look inside, yeah Look inside, look inside Look inside, look inside Tell me what you find Look inside, look inside Look inside, look inside (Verse 2: Emcee Millz) Took a step out the cocoon that's closing in, I'm claustrophobic My view was out of focus, distorted, kaleidoscoping The wounds I've gained are gaping open I pay for aid, but can't afford the love like US Open I'm joking I think my laughter be a trauma response In my subconscious, inner conflict tell me pass the baton I run from problems, jumping fences, feel defenseless. En garde! For real, on God, I never knew that life would treat me this hard But this my rebirth I'm breaking free from former bondage Every thought that tried to take me in captivity is tarnished The devil wear Prada My demons dress up like debutantes Can't haunt me no longer I'm coming back stronger Cause this my rebirth A quick transition into freedom I'm leaving the old me behind, this a new season I'm leaping into the palms of prosperity Into arms of who cherish me Replenishing the inner me that was perishing A rebirth A total transformation The self doubt has been fading These are different conversations I'm making A different person I'm facing Dichotomy inside of me was always splitting the blame Man, time to take responsibility for parts that I'm playing In this cyclical process I had to die to self to make some progress I've found that It ain't easy, but it's worth it This rebirth has made me a whole new person Yeah, ha ha This rebirth has made me a whole new person (Spoken Word) This cocoon, that I am encased in has been amazing But my changes are causing me to break free Into the unknown, I go where my heart will lead My soul is burning with a yearning for peace My peace, is a simple song It is the breath of wind intertwined with the fluttering of wings I sing, in the key of life But my eyes have caught arrows Bruising this sparrow with sorrow Still though, I look forward to tomorrow A chance at life anew Assuredly, rebirthing me Into... (Outro: Interview - Emcee Millz) My dream? Haha! Yo, my dream is this Like my dream has always been to make music My dream is making music, and making it to where people can actually apply it to their Lives People can actually feel like it makes a difference My dream is to inspire other people with my music and my story And hopefully, it gets them out of the dark place that they're in That's my dream